Awesome video

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9lp0IWv8QZY


you won't regret it. trust me.

Pantry Challenge

In order to save money and make room in my pantry, freezer and fridge, this week all meals will be cooked based on what I have in the house, there will be no runs to teh store!!

Breakfasts will be oatmeal, and if I have time, bacon and eggs.

For lunch we have chili, mac and cheese, and hot dogs.

Tonights dinner will be either a ham, or beans and rice if the ham hasn't thawed by tonight.

Homemade chili, baked chicken, pork roasts, pork chops, with sides of rice and various canned veggies for the rest of the week. Tacos with homemade tortillas one night probably.

Wish me luck!

Playing with the camera

I was able to get out and explore the county yesterday. The kiddos were with their dad so I had some me time. I found some great places to experiment with my camera. Here's a fancy, rusty old tractor. Click on each picture to see the full version of it.

random quiz time again

1. First thing you wash in the shower?
Hair

2. What color is your favorite hoodie?
sweatshirt grey

3. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?
YESSSSSS

4. Do you plan outfits?
no

5. How are you feeling RIGHT now?
tired of the snow

6. Whats the closest thing to you that's red?
twizzlers

7. Do you say aim or a-i-m?
AIM

8. Tell me about the last dream you remember having?
was caught kissing someone a friend didn't think I should

9. Did you meet anybody new today?
NOPE

10. What are you craving right now?
water

11. Do you floss?
ONCE A DAY

12. What comes to mind when I say cabbage?
fried with onions in bacon fat

13. When was the last time you talked on aim?
LONG TIME AGO!!

14. Are you emotional?
LATELY YES:(

15. Would you dance to the taco song?
I am too uncoordinated to dance

16. Have you ever counted to 1,000?
yes, every day, i work at a bank

17. Do you bite into your ice cream or just lick it?
lick

18. Do you like your hair?
yes, gotta cut it though

19. Do you like yourself?
YEAH

20. Have you ever met a celebrity?
no

21. Do you like cottage cheese?
ew, curdled milk

22. What are you listening to right now?
no rain by blind melon

23. How many countries have you visited?
NONE

24. Are your parents strict?
not so much

25. Would you go sky diving?
probably not

26. Would you go out to eat with George W. Bush?
nah

27. Would you throw potatoes at him?
no

28. Is there anything sparkly in the room you're in?
my tanktop has sequins on the bottom

29. Have you ever been in a castle?
no

30. Do you rent movies often?
netflix

31. Who sits in behind you in your math class?
NO MATH CLASS!!

32. Have you made a prank phone call?
YES WHO HASNT?

33. Do you own a gun?
no

34. Can you count backwards from 74?
YES

35. Who are you going to be with tonight?
the kids and a friend

36. Brown or white eggs?
brown

37. Do you own something from Hot Topic?
yes

38. Ever been on a train?
YEAH

39. Like the person your dating?
why date some one you don't like?

40. Do you have a cell-phone?
YES

41. Are you too forgiving?
YEAH SOMETIMES

42. Do you use chap stick?
YEPP

43. What is your best friend doing tomorrow?
WORKING I AM SURE

44. Can you use chop sticks?YES

45. Ever have cream puffs?
YEAH

46. Have you ever seen The Butterfly Effect?
NO

47. What was the last question you asked?
Where are your clothes!

48. What was the last CD you bought?
blue october

49. Boys or girls?
I have three boys, and I like dating MEN!

50. What is your bus number for school?
no bus

51. Is your hair curly?
NOPE

52. Last time you cried?
a couple nights ago

53. Ever walked into a wall?
MHM

54. Do looks matter?
KINDA

56. Have you ever slapped someone?
YES

57. Favorite time of the year?
SUMMER

58. Favorite color?
blue

59. Are you sarcastic?
KINDA

60. Do you have any tattoos?
NOPE!

61. The last person you held hands with?
him

62. Do you sleep with the TV on?
sometimes, usually its the radio though

63. Where was your profile picture taken at?
home

64. Do you hate or dislike more than 3 people?
NOPE

65. Do you like your life right now?
yes,

66. How often do you talk on the phone?
ONCE A DAY
67. What is your favorite animal?
kittens

68. What was the most recent thing you bought?
FOOD

69. Do you have good vision?
yep!

70. Can you hula hoop?
YES

71. Could you ever forgive a cheater?
YES.

72. Do you have a job?
yes bank teller

73. Can you handle the truth?
YEAH, MUCH EASIER THAN A LIE AND FINDING OUT LATER!!

74. What are you wearing?
ripped jeans, tank top, baggy sweater

75. Have you ever crawled through a window?
YYEAH!!!

Why?

Why do you look so haunted? Whats running through your mind. They say a picture paints a thousands words, but what are the words. What story exists in this picture. I know you prefer being behind the camera instead of on the other side. What secrets are you hiding from the lens? What are your eyes telling me? Is it resignation, is it acceptance of your fate? Is it reflections of everything you've done and been in your life.

Can you believe I can stare at this picture for hours and come up with a million and one possibilities and the only real thing I can settle on is how I feel about you.

Either way, I am glad I have this picture, as difficult as it was to obtain. Because life is unpredictable and we are not long for this world. One day it will end.

And on that day, my heart will break. Shatter. And while I'll be able to pick up the pieces and reconstruct it, it won't be the same. It won't be whole. You will be missing.

I am such a dork. And all the cliches fit.

My answer: because you are amazing. And wonderful, and amazing.

Movies

I've been watching a lot of foreign films lately. I'm not sure what started it, could have been Crouching Tiger, Hidden Dragon, which I've yet to finish. Chinese cinema is quickly becoming a favorite of mine.

The King of Masks: the story of an older man who realizing his time is short and he has no one to pass his craft to, decides to purchase a young boy from a slave trader to be his heir. As is custom the knowledge can only be passed to a boy and as the story unfolds and the truth about his new heir comes out he has to decide between custom and family. I loved this movie, it was a very sweet story and the actors were wonderful. The music is great as well. Rated All in the countries it was released, it would probably get a G or PG rating in the US

The Road Home: Wow, this movie was amazing, beautifully shot, great score, wonderful actors. Its a timeless love story told in a very simple way. I watched thinking at first that it was kind of slow, but this director knows what he's doing, his art is to use cinematography to set the mood and tell a story that you become personally involved in. By the end of the movie I was in tears. Rated G (USA)

Raise the Red Lantern: I wasn't sure about this one, the description was that it was about a woman who becomes a 4th wife to a rich and older man. I didn't know what to expect, but it was a beautifully done story about the hopelessness of giving up your dreams to do your duty and losing freedoms in the process. There was no risque scenes which is what I worried about, it centered more on the relationships between the four wives and the pettiness and plots between them. Rated PG (USA)

As you can see Yimou Zhang is my favorite director, he has a way of using the camera to set the story, the mood, everything. Next on my list of movies to watch

House of Flying Daggers
Riding Alone for Thousands of Miles
Hero
Not One Less
Happy Times
The Story of Qiu Ju
Red Sorghum

I love how the director realizes he doesn't need scandalous shocking scenes to portray a powerful story. He doesn't distract the audience with overly sensuous scenes. There are many more that I am looking forward to watching.

Just

Just

...brush the hair from my face

...cradle my chin

...rub my back

...kiss my hair

...kiss my nose

...pull me close

...rest your chin on my head

SIGH